melody. - Simple As That

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Hee~ ^^

Too bad I can't find the lyrics...

blablabla

Maa was complaining yesterday that my YT favs is too sad, and that I should be happy and keep up the spirit. Makes sense...funny how sometimes someone just need to knock you in the head before something happens...so... ^^

...have cleared out my list on YT, and...gotta listen to something better. Am sure with 15K of songs in my collection, I'm bound to find something ^^

Then again...today I heard a news that might not be interesting in my life...

Hmmm...

Life. XD

이기찬 - 행복해야 해

Lee Ki Chan - Haengbokhaeya Hae (Hope You Are Happy / You Have To Be Happy)



jabadallago bonaeji mallago
ulmeogineun ni soneul japgo
ijen heeojijago malhaesseo

neomu sirchiman bonaegi sirchiman
deoneun neol jabeul su eopgie
eokjiro useumyeonseo jal sal georago
geokjeong mallamyeo bonaesseo

*haengbokhaeya hae jalsaraya hae naran saram eopdeon geotcheoreom
seulpeoseon andwae apado andwae maeil useumyeo sarajwo
amugeotdo motaejun motnan saram majimak seonmureul badajwo

doraseoneunde dwi doraseoneunde
jakkuman bari an tteoreojyeo
pyeongsaenge dan han saram geu saraminde
dasin mot bolgeol algie

*REPEAT

jumeogeul kkwak jwigo ippareul kkwak mulgo
nunmureul chamaya hae
maeil nae geokjeongeuro gaseum apatdeon neol
majimakkkaji geokjeongsikyeoseon an dwae

*REPEAT

(Credit: Mardi09)

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What would I do without Korean ballads... *sigh*

Blowing off the candles

Ever blow off candles with your nose? XD



Now that's what I call skills...hahaha XD

Tried this with my bro sometime ago, we failed. It's not that easy at all... XD

Turning back time...

Ever wished that you could turn back time?

I have...many times.

But after a while, I think...if I ever do, I'd miss my experiences that changed me to who I am and what I am. So usually, I don't feel like going back in the past and changing things. Though, it doesn't mean I don't regret it, it just means...it has made me a better person. And with this thought, I just move forward, do what I can do best for whatever that's put in front of me, and actively seeking for a better opportunity.

But lately, one thing is always in my mind that I wish was different. I have also thought many times, if it was different, many other events during that timeline wouldn't happen and change either, which would in turn make me a lesser person.

But because of this thing, it is also making me feel a lesser person...so...frail...

I can't seem to avoid it no matter how much I suppress it...

Am in such a dilemma it's not even funny...haha ^^;

It feels so different. It's just...amazing, yet so annoying. This crave is not even immoral yet it seems so...wrong sometimes. It seems so unbelievable, yet it feels so incredible. It seems impossible, yet it feels so real...

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After dinner, an uncle said, I shouldn't be locked in by my parents. I should explore and go out with others. Somewhat a common topic. It's true that I follow my parents around, not always, but usually. And I'm glad I do. Also glad that my parent said, it is by my will not theirs. Am sure the uncle was taken aback, though...am sure it'll get him thinking to see the wisdom behind it.

To turn back time to mend the relationship with family is not an easy feat. Am sure many people avoid it. Am sure many people will say they don't have the obligation to do so. Am also sure that many people will not realise that honoring your parents and really get to know them is harmless and in fact a pretty good thing - both socially and family-wise.

I was never close to my family. That was my past mistake. Sincerely, I hope this doesn't happen to others too.

I find, coming back to Belgium is not all about career, it's more about family. Am thankful that God has brought me back here so that I can foster better relationship with my family (including my bros). Being with them allows me to see things differently in many areas and also to build the (lost) family relationship.

Turn back time? No way...am thankful for my past experiences only because I can give glory to God.

But for this one thing...well...will have to give it time and see how it unfolds. Sometimes, I wish...work would take me somewhere else far away...but then again, running away isn't exactly the best solution sometimes, and sometimes I don't feel like running. Silly huh... ^^;

Ah~ life~ what a journey... *sigh*~

How about going back several hours and change things? XD Impossible, I know...silly me... x.x

World TaiChi and QiGong day

As if I knew...

So, just found out that it is today from a restaurant owner and kungfu master! No wonder there were so many people doing it in Antwerpen! But I don't recognise any of the taichi form in Antwerp...? Guess the form I know sucks haha XD

Earlier this week, an uncle and auntie came over to give me some tips and taught me more about the form that we learn. One thing that I was surprised was, you have to use 阴力. Meaning, you have to flex your muscle when you breathe out as if hitting something - in this case, air. XD

Obviously it made it much harder, especially having to do it in a slow and continuous flowing movement. Made more sense though.

It definitely has helped my health and also my *points to my brain*.

A different perspective of work and home

Here's something interesting...

Why do (some) women tend to throw a fit at home, or at the husband/family, but they don't at the work place?

Why do (some) women have so much patience at work, but don't at home?

Why do (some) women work hard towards perfection at work, but don't at home?

Could be the same case for men too...

Is forgiving and be tolerant to one another that difficult?

Is working towards a good, happy, and peaceful family that difficult?

Yet, why is it so easy to be married at the workplace? Sure, at work you are bound by contract, do we need to have a contract at home to foster good character and love?

What a life... ^^;

Maybe also why there are so many divorce, singles, flings, stay-together couples, etc.

Commitment is difficult. But isn't it worth it in the end?

In Christ, husband and wife must learn how to love and submit to one another for these two qualities are the hardest to attain. I think many families are ignoring this. And in fact, churches are not even preaching such needed message to enable life-changes.

Sad isn't it...

Another reason to be a bachelor...

New turn?

Hmmm...

Went for an interview yesterday, and been thinking about it. Kinda hope that I'll get this job in Brussels. It has alot of potential.

It'd definitely give me the opportunity to brush up my French (for whatever reason).

Just gotta get back to 'em on when I can start and iron out the contract.

Would be awesome if this goes through...

Not sure if this is the right direction, but seems to be the only door open while Musmo is slowing down...

Insha'Allah ^^

Update: Got a response from them...got turned down... XD I think I got rejected 'cuz of my lack in French language skills...language is so so so important in Belgium... >.<

백지영 - 총 맞은 것처럼

Baek Ji Young - Chong majeun geotcheoreom (Like Being Hit By A Bullet)



(Romanized lyrics)

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This song is so well written...heh *sigh* it sure is hard to move on after a breakup...and even lose confidence in certain areas...

Didn't know about Baek Ji Young until recently. She definitely has a great voice. But little did I know she has been in the music industry for quite a long time! Her sex scandal years ago actually damaged her image and well...tore her life apart. Too bad her singing career was ruined...wonder how well she'll do after all these years...

To really make this song complete, Ji Young should really sing Way Back Into Love with Sung Si Kyung, Tim, Tei or Park Hyo Shin. Tim is preferred... XD

Yiruma - Love

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Heh am so glad I've found Yiruma's musical pieces. His composition definitely touched me in ways that I can't describe. I realise that there are times when lyrics aren't expressive enough and unnecessary. It's the melody that means much more.

Recently, alot has happened. And Yiruma is just right in time for me. Ah~ ^^

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Think I'm gonna melt into nothingness...

Not sure how long I'll ever be able to bear this...ummm...feeling... ^^;

*melts*

Budget! Or not...

Twice have I discussed about this within this week...

Generally, there's a contrast between east and west on budget. In the east, we don't quite budget anything. One thing is for real, we save for rainy days. In the west, we budget pretty much everything. And one thing we come to realise, the west feels more pressured in such economic crisis for not being able to reach their target and their set budget fails.

Budget works fine to a certain extent, but when you can't be flexible about it - able to shift it around where necessary - that's where it all go wrong may it be emotionally, physically, or materialistically (?) speaking.

And when you don't have a budget, it doesn't quite work either, 'cuz "effective" and "efficient" is lost due to lack of clear sight on what you are spending on, how much, etc.

Balance. That's what it's all about. Balance.

As long as you have a roof on top of your head, suitable food to survive, decent clothes to wear, what else is necessary? Sure, you can have varying quality of each of these that suits you, but really...

In the past, I never really care much about money, just spend where I feel like. Not enough? Work. Not enough? Loan. I practically dug my own grave. Thank God that I realised quick enough to get out of it before it got worst.

Years later, I wonder, how much is enough for savings for the rainy days...

I still don't have an answer.

But I know this, when I have to relocate because of my job, family, or any unforeseen circumstances, will I be able to cough up that one lump sum without relying on anyone else? The fee for transport, packaging, accommodation, food, work-related-costs, etc.

I believe God gives us wisdom and knowledge for a purpose, and we shouldn't be foolish enough to simply spend it and not saving it for the rainy day.

Other side of the coin, we shouldn't let money control our lives to the extend of what budgeting has done - being too fixed on how, what and where we spend our money on. Note, am not sure yet on how to describe or paint the negative impacts of budget, but I know it's not exactly right.

What's most sad about this whole money allocation thing is, many churches are 'forcing' individuals to cough up tithes and offering even in such times by banging on 1) 10% should go to God (which is totally unbiblical) and 2) you shouldn't lay treasures on earth so you should give to the church (yet churches are laying their wealth on earthly things?). Aren't Christians supposed to give cheerfully? Isn't being a Christian about joy and peace while instead such money-talk conjures up guilt and worry? I just hope that this whole money thing doesn't destroy Christians, just as I've heard and saw in the past...

Then again...

钱不是万能 但没钱万万不能 Money isn't everything, but without money you can't do anything.

It's all about balance...

But more importantly...in such times, it's all about dependency on God in every angle.

Life can be crazy huh? ^^;

Yiruma - Passing By...

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An Unusual Day

Sure was.

This morning, I've attended my first funeral service in Europe (Belgium). Had to cancel my morning appointment and did all my necessary stuff.

Am not exactly close to him, but we chat whenever we get the opportunity. I always like to listen to his good/bad experiences and also thought he's someone who is troubled somehow by the world. Who wouldn't be? I am too, except that one should learn how to leave it up to God whilst continuing to do what's best in what one can/should do in His will. And since he's 43 years my senior, am sure he had more in his head than me. After hearing what the Pastor said, am pretty sure he made his peace with God. ^^

I saw him at the hospital last Monday - a day before he passed away. Still remember that day, an uncle took me there and back. Walked around the Stadspark before and after. And just prayed that his wife does not falter from God. And that his family and friends will be fine. Can't remember how many times I've heard how many people just blame God for such things, when in fact it's not His fault nor should one be despair. In fact, if he's of Christ, one should be joyful! And he is...but his wife would be lonely, and seeing her tears again... *sigh* sometimes...just hope that she can see the good side of things and continue to live on joyfully.

He didn't have to go through much suffering when he left. That's a good thing. Imagine yourself having to consciously suffer through operations and medical tests, I think that's worst. Even though family and friends would be 'happier' to see a 'living' person than dead, sometimes allowing that person to just stop suffering by death can be a good thing. Reminded me of certain incidents I've heard...Heh. *sigh*

And what really caught me by surprise was...someone was right there there. *sigh* sometimes, life is such a big ass joke... ^^;

Yea...definitely an unusual day... >.<

지은 - 한번만 말해줘

Kim Ji Eun - Tell Me Just Once



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Great album...can't wait to hear more from her~ ^^ She's like Lena Park, but less...dynamic. Ji Eun sounds more soothing for sure~ though Lena does have a great voice too ^^

Nice MV too...

Paris...

...was interesting. Too bad the time spent there was short. One night there isn't exactly...enough to see Paris. A week would be nice.

So, Friday evening, I've decided to go to Paris with my parents. And just got back.

I had some expectations...so was sorta prepared what will be coming at me. Chinese food was supposed to be good, but it was average...nothing special. Better food in Antwerpen. ^^ Maybe we didn't go to the right ones...

Transport system was awesome. Underground for only 1.80 EUR to anywhere?! And it don't matter how many changes you do...

I thought the highlight was meeting up with a family friend. A bigshot in Asia for a big company came over for his daughter for the weekend. The whole family came.

Had the opportunity to chitchat with their other daughter. Reminded me of my past, funnily enough. Heh. ^^; Damn straightforward, big ass mouth about anything, rebellious towards parents, dislikes sibling(s), somewhat detached from the family yet spends on the family, etc. She's nice inside, but I guess not many people see that...

Her sis is totally the opposite - didn't talk to her at all though.

Heh interesting weekend...

The environment can sure shape a person.

Here's something random, the Eiffel Tower is pretty small.

Git

Just started using Git yesterday on all my entire working directories.

First few attempts failed due to some files being too large, e.g. .iso, .avi, .mpg, .rar, .zip, etc. Just had to add the funky filetypes to .gitignore and all is well.

Now I can revert any changes I've made, not like it's necessary, except for some of my scripts that need to be in controlled.

Still have to write up a script to do the add/commit automatically (once I understand how I wanna do it). ^^

Let the drama begin!

If I remember correctly it all started more than 2 weeks ago...

Lots of people are talking about it...

When will the people in the church ever...grow up and stop gossiping? Especially individuals who has a special role...

Yesterday's message on 《人比人 比死人》 may be a message about the unknown and secretive incident. But one thing is for certain...many people in the church is affected.

I was surprised that I'm one of the targets to be "questioned" about the unknown and secretive incident...

How strange that it's also around the time when I'm not attending the church regularly? Even some people suspect that I know something 'cuz I'm not attending...

Heck, I'm not even active in the church, nor am I part of whatever core group...

Let's see how long this drama will last..

Another week ahead for me to wonder whether I should really go to that church or to another. Maybe I'll decide last minute again??? ha! XD If the auntie today didn't tell me there's an Easter Celebration with food...I'm 100% sure I wouldn't go. Now...hmmm...food...who could resist delicious homecook food?! Not me! Also, if I don't attend...the drama would spill on me...? x.x

一波未停 一波又起 啊～

Update: so it may seem to be all about money and involved by women..? the church should really stop such things...what's worst is when the church leaders are involved. *shakes head* sure no perfect church, but let's try to to be one...

Girls' Generation - Gee Parody

SNSD - Gee Parody



Gotta be the best parody ever~! Haha~ Totally love it~ XD

Art of...?

...I don't even know what.

But today was another round of...words thrown around again. Sometimes it's hard for me to comprehend why some people can't take life easy. Can't just accept a person's behaviour and personality. Expectation is one, but really...is expectation that important in a livelihood? It's not business, so why bother so much? Life is to be enjoyed, not to be sorrowful...

That's my rant of the day.

败犬女王 eps 9 was interesting, and timely so. It was the part where he confessed...

其实我想问你们一个问题 像你们这个年纪的女人 条件真的比感觉重要吗
谈恋爱如果只剩下条件的话 不是很悲惨吗 条件能让你快乐吗 还是条件能让你幸福
当你靠近一个人 那种心跳加速 害羞的感觉你还有吗 我有
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条件是幸福吗 两个人没有了感觉 说什么都没有用的
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没有爱情的婚姻 比单生还要惨
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真正的幸福 还是建立在 互相有感觉的基础上 其它什么都不重要

So yea, the main thought in there was, "feelings". If you don't have the "feel" in a love relationship, why bother? It'd only end up sour. But according to my previous post on the definition of love, it doesn't quite make sense. And it's actually something else...I think.

1 Corinthians 13 is talking about the properties/attributes/character/condition of love, not the affection and passion that one must have towards another (what the drama is talking about ”感觉“).

If I ain't wrong, it's actually possible to have no "feel" but still love. But only love that is mature as from 1 Corinthians 13.

Reason why we see so many messed up marriages and divorces is because the "feel" got worn out, lack the understanding/acceptance of the character of love (1 Corinthians 13), and all hell broke loose...or the opposite, complete silence, avoidance and just be selfish in life.

And I see the truth in this...especially in these few days...then again, these recent word-throwing-events has been happening for as long as I can remember...so... :/

Meh, so what if I gain more understanding in the philosophy of love...it doesn't change my current state. Ha! >.<